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my family, as i wrote in my will, is the real thing. no matter how often and how much i get irritated by my parents, there's never good enough a reason to break their hearts.

no matter how good my friends are, no matter how much i love them, i know we may drift apart one day. i hope not, though. why bother collecting jewels (i don't really 'collect' friends) just to lose them. but that happens, unfortunately. too often it does, in fact, that it doesn't sadden me that much to think about it. but it breaks my heart even to only think about losing a brother, a part of the 'real thing'

thanks for liking this blog, to me, your opinions and praises matters as much as or even more than the whole gang's opinions and praises :) :) :)
we have different gifts. many different gifts. how cool is that.

anyway, the first month has almost come to an end. two days ago i chatted with dinda online about uni life and it got me so excited about what is to come.


met my beloved girlfriends today at PS. meilani, jebay, fanie. bought nietzsche's Twilight of the Idols (and Ecce Homo and the Antichrist, 3 in 1) and Kama Sutra (for fun). woohoo. cheap wordsworth classics ($8.40 and $4.10 respectively). almost bought the Three Musketeers. would have bought almost all the wordsworth classics (my favourite publisher!) if i had the money.
they had lunch at Pepper Lunch, i had mine with my parents so i just watched them. went to Marche to have some dessert and sit around and talk and laugh and have our dinner.
it was an awesome day but i missed the last transbintaro and parents had to pick me up and the traffic jam was awful all along the way. everywhere. seemed like everyone was out of their house. of course han was pissed. but it was okay after a shortwhile. perhaps because i'm gonna leave home soon.
i miss the mcnair people so much. i miss the sisters: dolly ferina szecin. i miss the school people too. i miss dicky. i miss everyone. i miss freedom.